I'm on the verge of breaking down. I'm so speechless right now, and all I want to do is be alone and if possible not exist, or at least be invisible. I do not feel like communicating with anyone at all, but I feel like bursting from what I'm going through right now. I really hope it will get better in the matter of days, please I beg of you mhmm.. If it get worst, I really don't know what to do. I don't know how to tell the truth to my parents, I no longer have the guts to speak. It's like the past haunting me once more, it's repeating itself. I hope it wont(amin). Looks like I'm gonna cry myself to sleep, I guess. I really should have listened to M, why did I even took the risk?

To make it worst, an ulcer grew on the side of my tongue. It hurts like crazy. Everything's painful, mhm I just hope I won't have to end up in the hospital again, no, not another hospitalization :( because that means a lot of money will be wasted. I'm sure my parents won't be happy with me as they've been spending a lot on me.

M's nagging, and at this condition I really wish she would just be those who doesn't care, get my drift? Yes, no?

Didn't touch my assignment today, totally didn't have the mood. Besides, I don't quite understand the other two question. At least, I've started and done with one. I'm proud of myself, and let's hope I won't procrastinate..

I feel like having a personal diary and I think, I might find an old notebook now and pen down all my thoughts that's too personal to be written here. Good night, don't let the bed bugs bite.