Have you ever wonder what people around you are thinking about? I do. I know the world does not revolves around me, but usually I try hard to concentrate to try hear people's thoughts about me. Cz most of the time, I feel so weird though I'm not. That's how bad my self esteem is and then when I realized I'm no superhero, then I smile to myself and that makes me look crazy.. Most of the time, I feel so silly thinking that way.

Sometimes i wonder who am i to you...
Sometimes i wonder if people really mean what they say...
Taken from Niss's blog.

I am feeling a little down. My heart hurts a little and I really do not know what is causing it to feel this way. Anyways, I miss having fun and laughing till my stomach hurts or laugh till I cry or be breathless from laughing too much. It feels like I haven't been true to myself lately and sometimes I just feel down for no damn reason. Which is bad, very.

I miss those who I am close with. (I'm sure you know who you are) Lately a few of them are at their worst every.. Or perhaps, just busy.

If only my heart could heave a sigh to feel better.

No, I'm nothing
Just bones, a lonely ghost burning down songs
Of violence of love and of sorrow
I beg for just one more tomorrow
Where you hold me down, fold me in
Deep, deep, deep in the heart of your sins