"Sometimes you have to be a bitch to get things done"
-Madonna

It turns like a washing machine and the pain gets greater every minute, and you'll rush to get it to ease the pain, my tummy hasn't been good these few weeks. I really think I need to check to the doctor but well I'm tired of telling my parents about it. They'll say okay, but at the end of the day they just ignore me. My stomach's really weak and my menses do not come regularly. I am worried, I wish I had cash to go for a check up. I hate it when I have to keep going to the toilet just to shit, yes shit. (Keep your comments to yourself now). And not making it any better, I'm having a little trouble with my jaw. Whenever I wake up, to yawn or brush my teeth. I can't open to it's maximum, when I force, I can hear a crack sound, two freaking times. It's a little painful but I can tolerate it. But it makes me curious, why is it like that? I do hope it's not because of my wisdom tooth, but I really want it off my mouth:( I need cash to do check ups, wow my body's one bitch. I'm thankful I'm breathing good. Whatever it means, go figure. Life's been alright, rotting at home (don't quite mind) but sometimes people (shrugs) skip that.

Been out for the last two days, or is it three? Seeing people in school uniform just keep reminding me that I'm turning freaking nineteen this year, and I'm not schooling anymore. I do hate school, but I miss friends and the environment in class. I miss having the fights, laughing at everything, disturbing people in every way, taking silly videos, shouting at each other for no reason. Everything about it, I wish I could go through it just for a day. All everyone is stressing about is their future, what are we going to do now? I'm clueless but at least I'm trying to go for something, I guess. I do hope I don't lose my interest half way like I do in DAVP. The feeling's so bad, I just wish I could disappear. It's cold today, I shall bathe and let M use the laptop.

Shall just lay in bed and listen to my ipod, uhmmm what a boring day.
Tuesday, Ich vermisse die Zeit hatte ich an diesem Tag freuen. das nächste Mal, ich hoffe, it's gonna so viel Spaß wie Sie, Tuesday.