I can feel something developing deep down inside, which is going to bring me down very drastically and I really wish I know how to kick this feeling out from my body system. Because it's a feeling where I don't know what's the cause and all I wanna do is be alone. No smiles, no communications, no nothing. No matter how hard I try to stay positive, some parts of me isn't dealing with it very well. I am hating every inch of it to the core. Then I'll start asking myself, what is my purpose really. I wish, I wish I know the answer to every questions I ask myself. Wouldn't that be wonderful for once?

Life hasn't been very interesting for a few months now. Been doing nothing much, nor going out often. Till I get way too lazy to even go out to town or any further. I really think my laziness is really bad. I gotta agree with Nad, for once.

In the afternoon, felt a little better. Talking some crap with my two girls and it felt nice. Finally talking, I think. It's been sometime we talked together. I seriously am curious when will our Escape Theme Park plan happen. World record, the plan has been a year plus. Ahhhh suddenly I miss the old times.

Moving on, today has been a real challenge for me. Thank God, it's fasting month really. Had to buy something at the Polyclinic and got to know that they've close down the carpark. Had to walk under the freaking hot sun. Upon payment, the cashier said, "I'm sorry, I don't have change for 50dollars" Ahhhhhh how pleasant to hear? -____- Asked all counters and it was all disappointment. I had to find a shop nearby which is FAR! When I came back, the cashier lady can just jolly well steady baby said, "I was actually looking for you" Whaaa, what great news? Okay drop that.

I am sleepy and I need some beauty sleep. Gdnight.
On a lighter note, be strong darling, you know there's so much others who cares. Life is like a rainbow, it's beautiful. I love you, Nadzirah Bte Md Azri, very much♥♥