Say what?

Sometimes, there's so much I want to say but whenever I open my mouth, nothing comes out. I'm lost for words and for a second I forgot how to speak. 

I sigh whenever I fail to let out my feelings to feel the great relieve of letting it all out. Perhaps I'm just so used to bottling it all up, it has become a bad habit of mine. 

At the same time, would anyone care enough to listen? Will someone judge me? Or am I just over reacting to things? I overthink and everything got doubled resulting to me worsening the fucked up feelings I'm having. Yep, cause I'm just too awesome like that. 

I truly hate this about myself. Help.