One thing that I probably would not like to see myself breaking down physically because I hate how cranky I get. I literally become an asshole and that's unfair for everyone around me. I'm feeling rather stress that I'm lacking of sleep. I don't understand why everyday without fail my eyes will open widely at 7 plus in the morning. And I struggle forcing myself back to sleep.

On another hand, you know they say, the more you try to push it away, it punch you in the face. Yes, I just can't help thinking about S. As much as I don't want to, I just can't. It's frustrating! I'm just hoping this faint feeling will not get more. Despise being in this position!