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My little brother is a fucking idiot asshole, fucking make me lost my fucking mood.
Breathe in and out,ugh fuck. This post might take a while, perhaps an hour.

Ahh, anyways today is really boring. These few days I feel like a pig. Been eating, even after eight. And, eating non-stop. This is seriously unhealthy and I should stop the habit before it gets worst. I hate being fat, I wanna be skinny. I feel so insecure about everything. It's so uncomfortable being me, trust me. It hurts being like this, even though sometimes I just laugh it off. But feelings, do get in the way.

Stopped the daily jogging routine, because I freaking skipped a day or two and it just got dragged. And here I am every night, ditching it. Besides, Nov has been a rainy month. Cold, cold, cold is all I can think of. Running at night, isn't good either. But, it's better than nothing right. Better than having to wake 5am and jog. Bath, get ready and be tired in school. Hate being restless. Cuz, sometimes I hate being irritating. Laugh all you want B's, but it's true. I get annoyed with myself sometimes, but it's fun most of the time. Lol.

Anyways, Shannon's birthday party's around the corner. And I've yet gotten anything for myself to wear. This sucks, left with twenty bucks because I spent on food again and a magazine when I went to the shop earlier. HATE GOING TO THE SHOP! Tend to spend my money like as if it's not important in my life.

Need. and. desperate. to. lose. ALOT. of weight. Help me someone? Ugh.
Watching 1 litre of tears for the second time, still so sad like the first time ):

Need to earn some bucks, HOW HOW HOW!
Perhaps I really need a job.