out of place.

"Music is what feelings sound like.."
- Author Unknown

Yes, perhaps it's too early to say this. But I just can't click with my new classmates, I just don't feel like myself around them and that makes me feel so damn uncomfortable. All I think of is, for the class to end fast. I miss my old classmates, no doubt. I hate being in a new environment where I have to start all over again, I'm tired of it. I don't know if my face showed what I was feeling, because it was so weird when my lecturer came to me and asked if I was okay and asked if I'm lost at any part of the class. There were times where I wish I'm invisible to everyone, I hate it when I don't feel like myself. How I wish I could describe how I feel more but I'm lost of words. I feel like a baby now, because I all can afford to do is cry and hope I'll feel better. And I really hope I will. I want things to turn out better, but I don't know how to make it happen. Or shall I just let it happen by itself without putting in any effort? I feel like a hypocrite already. Hi close friends (you should know who you are) I need a meet up with you, to make me feel alive again and make me feel better. Let's please meet up, because this really sucks. I'm hoping I'm not gonna regret taking up this course, well, at certain times I feel like finding a job at a childcare center already but I'm just afraid I'm not prepared for what's gonna come. And the fact that I'm still jobless after so many months, is making me stress (due to some reasons). I think I'm turning in now, as I'm very tired. Good night world. Please make me feel better by tomorrow.