I'm a human being afterall.

"I really don't mean to complain too much
But this is turning me into quite the lush"

I am starting to feel so awful. I tend to start crying knowing that it's slowly break me down and exposing my weaknesses. After all, I am a human being. I'm so tired, right now my body is not giving in for the day. Woke up with a terrible headache and is still killing me. I don't know how people could tolerate with long working hours without a break. I know I can't, I am not strong enough. Spending two and a half hours in the MRT or sometimes bus everyday and dealing with my running thoughts. So many things to remember during work, like what goes into this drink and that,Mm.. Having to memorize everything in a short time, kills me. It's worst than school.. I hate growing up but age is like life. It goes on...

I do not mean to complain or whine too much. But i just need to let go all of things I'm keeping to feel better and thank you to those who listened. I am really sorry to put more burden on you with my complains. I promise, I would not complain anymore :)

Dear espritvolage,

on a random note, I miss spending time with a whole lot of people including my family members. I wish my birthday was better and spent with them but everything turned out so bad. I shall say, worst birthday ever. And it hit me hard.

Oh and I'm not asking for any sympathy, this is purely based on what I feel. I just need to let it out and thank God espritvolage doesn't judge nor talks back or else I'll die in my own thoughts.

I wish I am okay and I'm so tired of faking everything. When will happiness stay? oh God, I sound like a loser already..