Confused heart.

32 more days. Can't wait for this nightmare to be over. Finally escaping from the busy country that I live in.

Been trying to work as many days as I can but mostly I was given long hours. And it's taking its toll, getting the best of me. I'm starting to have my meltdowns. I'm exhausted but still trying to pull it all together. All of this better be fucking worth it... It got me thinking, this is a life of a part timer at a decent company.. What if I leave this and find a stable full time job? Whatever it is, I hope I'll truly enjoy working in that line so it won't be so hard on me.

Been having some rough times with myself for the past few weeks(probably it has got to do with all the long hours) and I didn't thought my moodiness would visible. Been trying hard comforting my dear self. It's pretty difficult when you're suck between situations where there are parts that pisses you off like mad and the other parts where all you wanna do is smile and laugh. If you get what i mean. Ha.

Some people are so full of themselves. Like as if the world only revolves around them.. They should consider others. Other's feelings, others exhaustion and what not.

Well o well, better not get into more ugly details. But i really hope all of this negativity and exhaustion will go away ASAP. I need energy! Shall stay strong for the trip, hehe!

On the other hand, hoping a friend is doing alright. Worried sick, hope everything will be fine. Be strong darling :)

Goodnight love(s). Mwah!