At times I wonder, will I ever get lucky to fall in love or marry someone who loves me truly for who I am. Accepting my every flaws, being able to be patient with me. I know I'm not the best person out there, so many other beautiful girls but I want to be loved too. Who doesn't? I won't deny that I do feel lonely at times and the thoughts of having someone by my side sometimes hurts. I always wonder if I will ever find that someone, especially me. People often ask how I am gonna get a boyfriend/husband and let's be honest here, sometimes it hurts. It makes me more insecure of myself every time someone question me. I don't know man, and I'm afraid. Afraid that I'll never find anyone who will love me like I will love them. Isn't it nice being pretty and all the boys wants you? I envy those people not because I want that kind of attention but simply because you know you're admirable. As pathetic as it sounds, I promise I don't mean to make it so horrible but it's really not what you think.

Friends often ask when will I find someone, the answer it obvious isn't it? I don't know. I believe in letting it come on its own because I really don't want to look desperate nor rush into something and regret it. Wasting time and such a waste of emotional investment. Letting myself get hurt for something's not worth it.

Sometimes I just don't know, feels like I'll never be with anyone. sigh :(