"Time slows down whenever you're around
I can feel my heart
It's beating in my chest
Did you feel it?
I can't put this down.."

My appetite has been really crazy these few days or perhaps week, I can't recall. Always feeling hungry and eating a lot (I really mean, ALOT) I really hate that because that's when the fats start to grow again. I'll always imagine myself being skinny but perhaps it's not gonna happen soon. I'm so uncomfortable in my own skin. Ah man, I need an inspiration. I need help, I need advises. How I wish the gym was a lot cheaper, mhmm. Oh, I also have an issue with my face or rather skin. It's so ew gross. I need a better skin care products. Why can't things just happen effectively? I hate waiting, ok you guessed it. I have no patience and I find that I'm really pathetic because of that. The pimple scars I have on my left cheek is making is worst, I feel so ugh shit, please go away! Itchy fingers, it's all your fault. Any recommendations on what brand to use for the skin, anyone? Anyone used Nivea before?

"School's" been okay, still shy and I really find it funny and I really can't believe I feel VERY SHY. Yes, people who really know me will be laughing at the word shy. Me, shy? So far from it right? But trust me, I am. Most of the time, I keep quiet. And sometimes, it feels like I can't be bothered to even start a conversation. It scares me. Assignment's out and I don't know where to start. Haven't even touch it, when I'm supposed to think about it already by now. Shikin, let's not procrastinate ok? That won't help even one bit but make things worst. I still am having doubt about the course I'm taking, I really don't know if I really want it to be a job I will do in the future, and I hope this is something I will do. (cross fingers).

I'm tired both physically and mentally :( And sometimes, I hate taking naps in the afternoon, because when I wake up I feel so weird, sometimes more tired. And I really really hate over sleeping, whatever you call it. Because it makes me more weak, like crazy! Aching, aching, aching. I'm still sad because I'm still jobless. Ergh, that email I'm supposed to send to N's place isn't done yet. I better start right now, mhmmmm gd evening to you.