Dear Espritvolage,
Though there aren't any problems physically but something deep inside is eating me up and it hurts. I feel like a loser! So weak, fragile, sensitive etc and I feel like I might break any second. I tried to push all the negativity away, but who I am fucking? I'm lying to my own self hoping to feel better but it always gets the best of me. I hate to think too much but my mind choose to run 1000km/hour, literally... Can you please let go of all these stupid thoughts, dear mind? & dear heart, will you please stop adding salt to my wound?
I seriously feel like I'm running out of time, should I just try that job or not etc... Decisions decisions, decisions... I hate em. Why can't someone choose them for me? I hate the fact that I'm getting older each year. Being 20 isn't cool. I haven't been productive since last year and I really hope this year, I'll be more productive and achieve something I'm gonna be very proud of. God Willing. Please be nice, 2011.
I need laughing sessions and laugh like there's no tomorrow. Mhmm....
On a brighter note, Happy 29th Birthday Abg Yazid♥
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